Random Rantings...
Monday, July 14, 2008 at 21:34 I've had writer's block for what seems to be a very long time now and I hate it. I hate it cos' I don't want to blog for the sake of doing just that...there's got to be some purpose to it but at the same time I'm finding myself needing to put something up. The problem is that there's all these random thoughts filling my head and for some reason they're incomplete to say the least. So I'm starting out quite well only to be stumped after the first line or two. Is there anything more annoying than my not knowing what I think? Seriously? Well, politics maybe.
I started off thinking about beliefs and why we have them. I don't believe in valuing physical objects like most people do in this materialistic society, but I do gather them cos' I believe in what they may represent. So my paying six dollars canadian for a magnet is not a waste by any means, it's an investment rather because the message on that reminds me of the person that I need to become, that I'll struggle at times and fall flat on my ass maybe...but I can't let the odds keep me from doing what I know that I'm meant to. And I need to be forever mindful of that...tokens like these are important to keep close by.
And then I thought about this baby boy I held last Thursday. I never held a newborn before - it's rather disturbing to cradle a life that's even more fragile than my confidence as of late but right then and there everything was okay. I felt I could give my life to protect him, his head against my left elbow slowly turning at times to let out a soft yawn and I could see a person finding renewed purpose in caring for a little one like that. It's a chance to make things right with the world and is enough of a reason to start right now.
And now work has crossed my mind - looking back now it seems that the day was rather nonchalant really. I have this report I've been working on for the past like four months and I'm forever getting called away to something more pressing. Not that I really wanted to work on it anyway but now there's this sense of urgency to deal with it, this nuisance that I need to get rid of and it's time I did really cos' I'm better than that, better by a long shot. Greater things are calling, I can feel it and obstacles like these are negligible in comparison. It's time to end it.
My friends come into focus now, at this instant. We all need distractions from our lives and I managed that last night, making my way to TGI's. It's amazing how a change of pace can change everything, that and well, food. A bit of both made everything alright. And the ice cream...was brilliant...even got me a theory on that.
Then there's this move I saw on Saturday...Harold and Kumar with this particularly stupid scene where Kumar pulls aside in the middle of the night, wanders into the bushes and starts to urinate - only for a stranger to come out of nowhere, walk up to the very same bush and do likewise. It was so silly the expression on Kumar's face, but what made it funny was how Adrian laughed at that. I like contagious laughter. The world needs more of that.
And now I'm thinking that I did okay with this post. Guess it makes sense to write about everything if I can't write about anything else...go figure...thanks for reading.
A
Reader Comments (2)
Did the menu move to the right, or have I been drinking? Or both?
I really liked this entry from your blog, I almost cried when i read it! Keep writing aaron, it's a pleasure to read your stuff!